hanging between sickness and healthiness

Well, hey there.
As it appears in tittle, I'm not healthy nor sick. Yet.
I've been very tired all the time and I just want to sleep. And I don't have appetite of eating anything. I just fell asleep for few minutes in the middle of my floor and before that I was supposed to start writing here.
I was actually meant to write a few days ago but I think this tiredness started on last Saturday.
And I have forgotten the subjects that I was supposed to talk about. ::D ehehe.
But yeah,.. If I'm getting sick, I wanna write one post before that. Hopefully this is readable and doesn't sound confusing (because I'm feeling a little bit confused by now). Wait a second. Now I remember one subject what I was about to write.


I dyied my hair on last Thursday
I had to spend more money for those color stocks than never before because I had problems. I had a little bit my own color showing under the blond color so I decided it would be great time to dye it.
I already bought the color stock on Wednesday from store and I wanted to take a shade lighter than last time.

I dyied with L´oreal Préférence 'Helsinki' first, but it didn't hide my own color as well as I wanted so I took a trip to store to buy a new one that would possibly hide it better. And what did I do! I took a whole new different color from Schwarzkopf. Live Color XXL 00A Absolute blonde and  I swear it wasn't first so good idea! The directive said something that "you might have some orange and yellow shades in your hair while the color is affecting but it fades away". Well, hell NO it didn't fade away! When I was washing my hair it looked like Aurora's hair color from the Sleeping Beauty, not in the movie but in some pictures where people colors it waaay too bright in my opinion. OK, not that yellow but near of it.  I didn't took a picture of my hair in this part 'cause it was so ugly.. And I don't like it if it's about to have blond hair, or I think it doesn't fit on me. It has to be more golden but not yellow. I went to back to the store, but not to the same where I bought last ones. Idk, those stores what are near to my home are big and have lots of cash employees but, I think sometimes that it's a little embarrassing to get same stuff from same place if your hair dying has gone wrong. I'm insecure about that. ▪___▪

So I went to another store and then I bought a shade lighter than last one from  L´oreal this time. And I find these L´oreal Préference color names little funny 'cause first one was Helsinki and now I took one named Stockholm. hih~

uhh.. so, I finally uploaded my new pictures of me what I took last Friday(or Saturday I don't remember ::D) and I show one of them and that I can show how my hair dying ended. It went better than I expected.
Left to right, there is my hair before and after(not in the same day)

 


I knowww, my green end faded awaayyy ;;___;; But I have that shock color yet enough to dye then back but I can't now, I'm too lazy. I saw my mom and dad on Friday when I went to see them to my hometown but they just left from work where I was supposed to go see them. They were at my sister's to get her dog Manu(I love Manu, he's like the cutest little miracle ever♥) and when I called mom, she invited me to go to our summer cottage where I can see Manu too but I was planned to watch Steve & Tony's Love Story (yeah The Avengers, yes ;;D my BFF described it like that) with my BFF and her little sister but I really wanted to see mom so I drove to cottage. And when mom saw my hair, she said instantly that I decided to have more like her color. Them I really realized that hahah yes, we have almost the same color shade with mom..! (Well, I don't know is it cool or not)
I don't care if that new shade is too lighty for me, because it's not, I have always heard from others when I was saying them that I would like to dye my hair blond. I have always, like always since I was 7 or something, wanted to have blond hair even for a little while and all because of that I adored my Barbie dolls' blond hair. And I've always been that one who's the only one with red hair(bladder, bladder..). But I don't have that kind of stupid reason that Barbie's blond hair anymore it's something else ;D

I'm have a little bit sore throat and every time I swallow it hurts, and because of that I've drank so many cups of hot mixed homemade juice that I can't even remember how many today. I'm also feeling that my temperature is not normal, my forehead is warm but my toes are cold, but I'm feeling quite normal but my head hurts, it's not the normal headache you know.. It's that when you have fever. Or something. I'm bad at explaining anything.. But I can't be sure do I have higher temperature than normal because I don't have thermometer here. That sucks, because I always want to check it when I feel even a little bit not normal.
I should probably stop for now 'cause obviously I'm not feeling very healthy. But I don't.

I have to let out this one thing.. One friend of mine was just sick and it's so funny if I get sick now, just after her.. We don't even live near to each other. I've been drawing lately more thank usually. Usually I don't draw three or four per week. But yeah, I first drew Loki, then some days later Thor and that I drew for Katja who was sick. And no long after I again had idea to draw Elphaba Thropp the Wicked Witch of the West (from The Wizard of Oz if you know that). And that's not it yet; I colored Elphaba with my photoshop on computer and then Thor. And because my BFF's little sister had birthday last week, I drew Lady Gaga for her with watercolors. I might take Loki as my next coloring project, it looks so lonely when every other drawing is colored.

 

This was all for now ♥☮ ~Ida

Riddles of things that should be clear already + Movie Monday #59 - Disney villains

Hey, it's been, uuhh... how long? A week? since I wrote last time.. First. Movie Monday.

 Movie Monday #59 - Disney villains
This is weekly challenge from finnish 'Movie Monday' blog and I got interested of it by Katja. She runs her own blog Don't give a tinker's damn. 
There's different challenge and this week's woke up my interest. This is about Disney villains.

Who's my favorite ?
Uhh, this is hard. Because I like almost all the Disney villains in some kind of way. But if I must name only one... Gaston from Beauty and the Beast. I don't think he's really villain but.. He's kinda funny because he's so cocky and self-centered. :D

Ok I have to name one other villain 'cause I don't actually see Gaston as a villain. My favorite Disney villain is Scar from The Lion King (and I want to     tell you that his real name is Taka before he got his scar). He got his brother killed yes, he send his nephew far away that he can rise to be king. So why Scar? Idk, he attracts me with his green eyes, and he's different. In all the ways. He looks different and be behaves different than other lions. And oh, he's just so sexy with his proud essence. You should just read his story and then you would understand. I can't really tell more..

Who I was afraid of when I was kid?
I absolutely have one answer. Horned King from The Black Cauldron.

I have always been afraid of him. He's just so not like other villains. No. He's truly scary. I am still afraid of him a little bit. hrr.. I got chills. Ew.

Does (voice)dubbing matter and where the creepy comes from?
The whole creepy actually comes from the voices in everything. The villain is much scarier if he or she has some scary voice actor who has this amazing talent of voice acting. Dubbing doesn't really matter in Disney movies. They pick up the voice actors according to me, very very carefully. It's amazing how they have got so similar to each others voices and in different languages. I adore that. But having a little criticism here, I have to say that Mufasa from the Lion King doesn't have that much low voice in english than he does in finnish. Yes, I was (every one of  90's kids) little child when I first saw The Lion King at cinema and I like his low voice. Really much. When I heard him in english at my twenties, it wasn't so low. I must say this too that I love low voices of men and a little example; Chris Hemsworth. ;)

Now for my ordinary monday and how it went.

First I wanna tell how my day has been. It's been fine. No one ever thinks that for real. They only say it because they it's been dull or then they just don't want to say it has been bad.
I am not gonna lie. I never wanna say that sentence. It just it just irritates me. But to people I don't like or don't wanna bladder, I say it's been fine. At least good. What means 'good'? Is it that you haven't been doing actually.. nothing? That's why you answer them good. Or is it just because you wait them to tell about their much more interesting life than yours? Or you've been just dull.
Well, my day went averagely ok. Because first of all, I woke up and when I saw myself on a mirror, I went like "what the fuck is staring me from that mirror?". My hair was waaayyy too tangled together, messy and dirty. Ew. You do not want to see that. I fucking looked like a troll again!

Well, I went to kitchen nothing more thinking and ready to make my morning porridge. No milk! I don't wanna make it with water so I didn't actually eat anything but drank tea and glass of orange juice. Whole day  ruined because of that milk.
I saw dishes, they were been there the whole weekend. I didn't do anything to them now either.
I hate full trashcan and because I (actually we) have two cans under the dishwashing table, I took them out. I  brushed my tangled hair, it was HARD and then I went to shower.
When I got back from shower, I saw green hair on my bedroom floor. They were mine, because I have green ends of my hair and my hair is probably very damaged (which I don't give a shit about) and they break easily.. umm.. yeah.
So I went to take vacuum cleaner machine but, it wasn't it's right place. It was at my bff's room. I hate when thing don't find back to their own places. I have said it to her when we have been discussing about cleaning about hundred of times. I cleaned only kitchen and my room (I don't even be at living room so much and not  spend my time at my bff's either so..) and cleaned the earlier said rooms' floors with mop.
Yeah, that looked so much better.
I decided to wait my bff to come home and then we would go to market to shop a little food to each other. Both of us buys our own food, I decided to discuss with her about it, about a two weeks ago and then it was fine with her. She came home and it seemed her feet hurt and she would be able to come to marker with me later. Well, I waited like and hour and then went to her and asked 'how much later you wanna go..?' (because it was 6:30pm already and I wanted to be back before Salatut Elämät = finnish TV soap opera) and she said we can go immediately. The whole trip to market we didn't spoke. Actually I tried to speak something, a little small talk you know. But I got night back. It never works with her.
In the market, I took one little basket only for myself and about in the halfway at everything I said to her that she should just simply tell me if she don't want to buy food for herself, then she don't have to come with me. I saw it from her face the whole time that she didn't want to be there. Just fucking tell me, discuss with me.
Are we suppose to be adults or what? Or what I think.

I read a quote from www.goodreads.com yesterday and I wan to share it with you.

“It's not the load that breaks you down, it's the way you carry it.” ― Lou Holtz

So this was kind of all today. Peace out ☮

Mistakes makes me perfect

I already gave up on one subject I was gonna write about, but I was writing it last night so I checked it out today and I realized I don't want to continue that anymore. That happened for the first post too.

Because I always think twice but if it's the mistake I'm gonna make in life, I don't think twice, 'cause those mistakes don't just come behind the corner just like snap. I see them when they have already happened awhile ago and I have to fix it. They come out slowly like some fucking ninjas in the shadows.
But the mistakes I decide to fix, whatever it ever is, I just need the first kick. That kick may be a friend's advice or my teacher's (when I was school, not anymore) but never my mom's. Because the difference between the given advice of mother's and friend's is that mom yells at me, or she says it with anger or disappointment that I can just feel in my bones or at least she gives me those bad looks that beat me down even more, emotionally. I do not get the courage.(I bladder too much now)

I have been swimming on this 'not being self-confident enough' -thing too long.

Next subject is better.
I am having deco design project in my room! It is still very incomplete because I have to paint the walls first and I haven't went to get my painting supplies yet. And the reason why I do this re-decoration is that my wall are just way ugly colored by the last person who lived in here before me.
The walls are too dark blue for my taste. But I have to admit it that it looked prettier or at least I should say, they looked more acceptable when my parents were here to put my new big mirror on the wall above my table, new as well.

My room looks this atm:

The first pic You see my room as this when you stand at the door
Second pic That is my new mirror and the table that were just bought. They cost about 179€ together, mirror 99€ & table 79€, both from IKEA.

Chair is not new and the trashcan(under the table) is actually very old tin can that I have had since forever, but last year I painted it at my father's car repair shop with car paint colors. x)
Anyways, I'm going to paint those walls soon, I don't know when, as soon as I get my lazy ass off of this apartment to get the paints, and I have been thinking some sort of beige.

but with the beige, I need one lighter color because I'm thinking about painting only one wall with the darker one (I took example colors out of Tikkurila's color palette) but they must not differ too much from each others. The ones I am thinking about. This is really hard and it may take time to choose those colors because I'm such a perfectionist on everything I put myself into!
But this is only tentative..

After I get walls painted I am sticking some butterflies on the wall. That's right, butterflies! I took screencap pic from internet, I saw this awesomeness on Gossip Girl(and I already said I don't watch it but with my bff)

I want my wall look exactly like Serena's bedroom at Blair's home.
I have cutted only 25 paperbutterflies, because my hands hurts; I always tend to squeeze scissors too hard when I focus and try to make perfect trace(see, I'm perfectionist!)

SO, here are the black butterflies I've already cutted and there's one on wall for example.

 






This was quite all for now. Lastly I put a quote here.

“I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.”

― Marilyn Monroe

Peace out ! ☮Ida