Alice in land of Madness

The ever since I have gone mentally insane by my best friend I write about it.
Because - If I can now quote a friend of mine - " Because, saying things out loud, makes your mind feel better. Then you've "done something" for it. If you would keep them to yourself, you would feel even horrible. It's natural to whine for someone and search for help/approval/guidance etc. Even if you're doing it non-purposely".
Katja(Katja, Kake or Cakey? Which one, tell me?) has been my sort of 'personal Dr. Phil' for a week(and for life I wish), I know she feels kinda a bit cocky now that what I say now, that she's really been helpful for me to even get through some of days by talking with me at nights and listened to me when I had something in my mind and needed or not needed to whine it.

So, I have decided to tell about how insane this all moving out system have gone. To clear out, I moved out two weeks ago from my childhood home, and I already told that on last text post but uhh.., it made me think. I have been 24/7 only with my BFF, and since I have no job and I am slowly running out of money, it all makes me mad. And since I know anyone else from this town, the only company irl for me is my BFF or me to myself. The reason why few of you whom I have told about this blog is that I don't really want to tell about this to so many(including my BFF, which is term I am not so sure anymore should I use it about her).

It has appeared to be much more harder to be independent than I thought it would.
How incredibly wonderful this whole moving out is, huh? Really? I see nothing wonderful about it.
The only thing that is great, that you have finally alone time from your family. No more "do the dishes", "could you clean this house" or food that you hate. All gone. You are now your own master. Which includes the un-nice(is it a real word, well I have 0% fucks to give if it's not) things such as bills. I sincerely hate bills! They drive me mad. As you can see, madly mad maddness. Mad mad mad. All mad.
You probably think, 'that girl is insane'. I don't blame you. This post has shown you it. But how you really qualify 'madness'? It's no one's business really to tell if someone is insane. But since we have all these doctors our there in world, they can diagnose what's mad and what's not.
I can't stand that word anymore, surely can you either, and I stop writing about it now.

In this very moment I think of going to get all those irritating garbage bags away, and maybe I should eat something. But I am really not hungry at all. I've lost my appetite somewhere.
It's all have been only coffee or tea for some days now.And I haven't even got sleep enough because of reasons. My coffee is all so cold again. ;__;

OMG IT'S THORSDAY I ALMOST FORGOT IT!
Since it IS Thorsday again, if you don't know(probably not) I have started this tradition on every Thursday. It means that I pick up a picture of Marvel's character Norse god Thor, and do a same pose as in the picture. I didn't have any time today to do that, because I forgot it was this day again(Is it really have been a week already since last one?)
Well, I have already posted to my DeviantArt two Thor pose -pics and I just show you them here and now so you know what's it all about. I'm making new maybe tomorrow or next Thursday then 'cause I forgot it. Fuck why, I've been so down lately that I forget everything.

I have cleared my mind again, so now I shall put a quote. (This will be tradition also on my blog)

“The unhappiest people in this world, are those who care the most about what other people think.” 

― C. JoyBell C.

but I found this other one too so here's another quote:

“It has been said, 'time heals all wounds.' I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone.”  ― Rose Kennedy

Oh right then. See you again, ☮Ida

p.s. Friendly reminding that you can throw me subjects whatever you want and I'll check it out if I may write about it☮♥